Dear Diary...

Hey all! It's been quite a busy week!! I hope all is cool with you :-) In my world, I started a diary to record what I eat. (Do you see my terrible handwriting???) I've heard this was effective, but I wanted no parts of seeming like I needed help, I was out of control, too weak to just do things on my own, being too focused on food *eye rolls, what was I thinking*...See I appreciate the organic and effortless and I have this Super Woman thing goin' on...anywho, I started on Saturday and I highly recommend it. I do have a few rules: 1) no judging. This diary isn't for me to beat myself up, it's to learn and adjust. 2) I need a pen that I like writing with. 3) Write down what I eat after I eat it, not at the end of the day. I want to capture the moment and be aware of my internal stuff in that moment.

The reason I did it is because I couldn't figure out what the heck wasn't working so I wanted to be more conscious of what I am eating including the little tastes of popcorn when I make a snack for the kid, since sometimes what I thought was a little taste turns out to be more like a full serving before I realize it. Let me tell you, I'm learning a lot! I'll keep you updated on how things go, but I have seen a big change in my habits so far. I realized that I do need help, which is fine. Who doesn't need help with something!?!? I've cut down the amount of not great for me stuff simply because I don't want to write down that I ate 5 chocolates, lol! I gave myself control by deciding what I eat and when instead of being at the whim of the food around me and interestingly, I feel less focused on food partially because I just feel more in control overall.

This is just the beginning though. I'm committed to this for a month at least, even if I feel like I have it figured out. I'll check in at least once a week. I think that's good for keeping me accountable and on track!

Have a great Thursday y'all! *love and hugs* Jen